J-Lo

J-Lo, Jo, Mojo, Jojo .. well they really are just plain ol' me. Bookmark this page for some bedtime reading and do post some comments once in a while for the love of me. *^_^*

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Lies, Lies and more lies.

Sigh. The deeper I dig, the more I hurt myself. The relationship has been great so far, filled with nothing but sweet nothings. We’ve talked, we’ve discussed, things just never stop happening. The trust meter has just miraculously dropped from 50% to zilch. Welcome to the world of relationships.

Sorry for the lack of updates. I was swept off my dry feet into a surreal world of dreams. Some call it love, others call it relationships, but some just make sense calling it stupidity and a waste of time.

Someone felt that I was surfing too much, and thus cut me off from the blogging world entirely… well almost. My proxy has banned anything with the word BLOG, so the obvious points to blogspot. Thank God I have my own pc but no, I haven’t been home long enough to write anything, or even if I were I would be busy sleeping, watching Lost or Desperate Housewives OR banging my head against the wall.

I’ve got a deep, unidentifiable feeling in my gut. The pig can’t sleep says a lot. Here I am whimpering whilst he’s out there god knows doing what with his friends, and all he could muster up is a string of sorry-ies.

Who am I to blame. He runs off to her with a business proposal, has a meal in MY FAVOURITE RESTAURANT which I don’t even get to enjoy with him, sits there entertaining HER friends, lets me eat dinner alone and doesn’t even bother to tell me that he’s busy.

Men are hedonistic, egoistic, selfish bastards.

Don’t blame women for generalizing, but 9 out of 10 women will say this sometime in their life.

I’m done ranting but I don’t feel any better. Maybe there really is something wrong.

I tried understanding, I tried reasoning, and I’ve screamed, shouted and cried many a time. Sighing a thousand sighs, what more can I do?

Maybe I should give in, walk away. But one whole year of making things happen, should I just give it a shot and try again? I’m starting to feel like Bree in Desperate Housewives. Trying too hard to be the perfect other half. Bad consequences.

Sighs. Life… Love… Sacrifices and heartaches… how la like this?????

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Happy Birthday to Me ,,,,

Thanks guys for dropping by the sad party. At least we managed to catch up… well some of us :)

Was rudely awakened by the vibrations of his phone EARLY Sunday morning (Mind you it was some 7.00am)… It was the ex with a serious psychiatric problem. Glad it was over and done with by noon and he didn’t change his mind about going uphill to visit Uncle Lim.

It was a wonderful weekend, with a whole 24 hours of undivided attention. Come to think of it, Sean really is a gem… truly a sweet guy with a huge heart! I guess all my effort over the past year didn’t rope in any disappointment.

Anyhow, for ONCE we didn’t gamble a single cent up there… Uncle Lim, please buck up fresh produce delivery… the Sushi King up there S U C K S big time.

Sorry I didn’t get to meet up with you Mike… and NO I wasn’t unhappy… well maybe I was due to the “ex” problem but my nightmare kind of ended so all’s good.

Thanks gals for the cute presents… absolutely love the Pashmina!

And so I’m 22, older and wiser, happy and very much in love.

Friday, October 07, 2005

Sweet Nothings...

I’m sitting here in my lonely, quiet cubicle… thinking about a certain someone…

It’s a freaking Friday and I can’t go back yet (despite the fact I’m bored to my skull) since the people decided to have a little “office warming” dinner tonight…

We’re planning to go watch Flight Plan tonight, a plan that was thought of LAST week and hasn’t been accomplished yet.

Life has been indeed blissful of late… with him being SUPER sweet! After 22 years of existence, I finally know the meaning of SWEET.

Since the 12th of September, a few obstacles obstructed our way… especially the X issue. Someone decided to drop by and make life miserable for me… thinking that she still held the upper hand to his heart. And if making an appearance wasn’t bad enough, she had to worsen things by bringing up the good ol days, the whole “remember the time we did this and did that…” kinda crap. He’s sensitive, and the tear ducts somehow produced… who had to endure the torture? Duh

Anyway

My birthday is just around the corner so quick get me PRESENTS! Scroll back to a few older posts to see my wishlist… simply said… pimp up my ride babeh!

Mandy, Pei Lyn and I will be having a triple combo birthday do at Margie & Jess’s residence somewhere in Subang SS18. It may not be as drunk or crazy as KY’s parties, but would be more of a ex-convent Kajang girls class of 2000 get together kinda thing… expect to see conventarians there, most probably with their bfs attached.

Wanna come? Sure thing honey… just pick up some food along the way and you’re in! No I’m not being an el-cheapo, just that I can’t seem to figure out how many people will be there, and somehow the idea of a BBQ didn’t go down too well so I just thought… well come with some food enough for yourself and maybe 2 others, so that we can share-share our food, you eat my fave I eat yours… at the same time it’ll be a mystery for us!

SO

Come yah come yah… See you there this Saturday… at some 7pm (International Time please) k?

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

My Love

Hear the sound of seaside breeze,

I shiver in coldness, could almost freeze;

You embrace me, hug me tighter please,

Watch out above you I see some fleas.

Nothing happened the last whole year,

I waited to see but only felt fear,

Days passed and now we’re here;

Happily united, I love you dear.


Thick and thin we’ve made it through,

Words of hatred never came true;

Change of wind brought nothing evil,

But there’s still someone I’d call a devil.

Why did she mess with my new found life,

Created havoc, even when I’m by your side;

I’d love to hate her with all my spite,

But that’ll hurt you, am I not right?


One year waiting, I suffered in silence,

Watching you go as I stocked up my patience,

Oh it was joy to see your radiance,

When you finally told me you’ve served your penance.

I didn’t lose faith, I would never do,


We’ll start fresh, a whole life anew;

I’m right by you, if only you knew,

A brand new life just me and you.